Posts Tagged ‘mental health’

Chloe’s World

September 16, 2014


What can I say about the job of a service dog, my Chloe! She has been patient staying in doors with me and keeps loving me up. Yesterday I started crying after weeks of being sick. Chloe came to me and kissed my tears from my face. Then she went and got a toy from her basket to share with me. We are being patient and continue to believe in everything there is a gift. Woof!

Chloe’s World and The Hayliegh Project

May 24, 2014
Here it is and it is beautiful! Mr. Craig Herrera Meteorologist/Reporter reported for channel 10 mews filmed and reported this lovely story about us! I hope you enjoy it as much as it touched me.
The Humphrey’s law group ADA, Lodi California assisted in the bringing the truth to justice! The Hayliegh Project helping people with their civil rights!
Assistance dog fight: ‘It’s been a rough ride’

Severe Pain suffering

March 4, 2014

Here it comes and God help me! Chloe is really doing her job even though I hurt I try to get out as best as I can. Chloe is grounding 100% because she doesn’t want me to walk. Good girl Chloe!

What do I do? I have endured insane pain since the middle of Feb  2014 the original pain triggered end of Jan, 2014. It is “Trying my soul” both physically, emotionally and spiritually. My spirituality is so important to me and all I can do is hang on to the belief that God is with me since I spiritually beat. To beat to pound on Gods door. My sanity has turned into a Sunami and I don’t know how to save myself.

I have been on the muscle relaxers the pain killers, and tried meds that added more pain like headaches. I would like my simple life back. My simple life would “Beg to differ” by most as it comes with managing pain, and fatigue that leaves a person paralyzed.

I know how to do Fibromyalgia and CFID, but add this and it is spiritual insanity and physically a living death.

It is the day after my injection not thinking of anything but positive thoughts about the medical treatment became a huge let down. I tried to walk a half a block per request to take it easy and not push by my PA. I am in excruciating pain and disappointed with my self. Along with this lack of exercise is the food that I eat and how to stay healthy with my weight because I am not able to move. I have chosen my Chronic Fatigue Immune Disease (CFID) plan no carbohydrates except air popped popcorn, veggies, legumes, and lean protein. It is a strict discipline, but a good one.

I am calling doc tomorrow to let him know that I am not doing well. “More shall be revealed!”

Finally no more crutches!

Finally no more crutches!

Finally doc appointment today. The last seven days have felt like a month of nauseating and excruciating back pain of suffering. This also meant it was a time for Chloe’s training out and about at the doctors today.

Chloe is a one year old puppy this month and still in her training years. Training a pup takes consistency both physically and mentally it is a twenty-four seven job and I am the one to do it!

Our visit at the doc went well. Chloe felt the need to stray away when people would make comments about her because she knows when people are talking about her, smart cookie! This is normal behavior for a service dog in training. Keeping their is crucial. In the patient room she was put in “Down” command which is hard for any pup for any period of time. She stayed down until the PA came in. She got up to greet him and then I had to direct her to “Down” command. She became startled when the PA started to work on my back as she already is watching over me. Chloe was put back into “Down” command. My teacher said I always “Win” which means my diligence has to supersede any thought of throwing my hands up in the air.

My Physician Assistant (PA) Mike is fabulous and is always up and on it when it comes to my healthcare. He has been treating this nerve condition for a few years now. It is now become more prevalent. He said that I need to keep the inflammation down. The mode of action is first a shot of cortisone in arm that will go all over to help with the nerve pain, topical compound cream for the area in question, muscle relaxer and pain pills to keep the inflammation down if needed. The shot should help for the next few days and then repeat the shot if needed. If this continues then we will restructure my care. This means being sent to a specialist to have the nerves in my spine treated to stop the pain.

My PA knows how important it is to keep my core strong and he know that my Pilates Machine is important to my health care. He was supportive in the fact that if I cannot do the Pilates Machine then I will be in more trouble than I am now.

I shared with my PA that me world is narrowing and he reminded me that I do a lot of good stuff for someone suffering with this disease and wants me to keep my goals going as it gives me life and a sense of “Importance” and “Contribution” to the world.

Looking forward to a new day tomorrow. WOOF!

Chloe’s World

February 12, 2014



Chloe is now retrieving my nightly medications. It has been a great help because there are many nights I cannot remember if I have taken them. Our next journey is to discern the difference between pain medications and sleeping medication. Woof!


Chloe’s World

February 12, 2014

Chloe's World

It was a great day to feel blessed again. Many people with hidden disabilities suffer many days in silence. Many live most of their lives in depression due to the isolation caused by health issues. I am one of those people. The last month has been horrific for me I make myself sound good on good days because a glass half full is better than half empty. On other days I suffer not being able to do what I love like working out on a regular basis or planning with friends and etc….. Sometimes getting on-line / computer is too difficult. I am glad that today brought many gifts.

Took Chloe to Wal-Mart today and as soon as we walked in there was a big display of stuffed animals couldn’t beat the price so we bought three. When we got home I was unpacking and as looked across the living room Chloe was on my Pilates Machine with all three of her new stuffed animals. She knows I love my Pilates Machine.

Another great gift today while at the cash register in Wal-Mart I realized I forgot some broth and David the checker said go ahead and grab it, as it was slow. I decided to try Chloe in a command which was a big test. Here it is, I asked her to “Stay” while standing at the register next to our grocery cart mind you she didn’t know she was loose leashed to the cart. I dashed off ASAP and when I returned she was standing right where I left her. David said she made two little whimper then stopped. This is great news as it means she is following AKC CGC Good Citizen testing and has a healthy temperament as a Service Dog while working in public with me.

Chloe’s World

June 15, 2013
  • ImageWe have been lying low as Chloe is on 3 antibiotics for her d….mange and eye infections. she has been battling this since arriving at the rescue. she is now being treated at our  vet now El Cajon Valley vet hospital. We also picked up Hayliegh ashes. her ashes had been wrapped in a beautiful cedar box, metal heart with her name engraved, a paw impression and wrapped in a beautiful purple sachet ouch. I will have to take a pic and post it on it.  While lying low we have made our favorite flourless oatmeal breakfast bars and a big pot of homemade beans with sage, paprika, cumin and onions. Plus we made it a move day just taking life easy. WOOF!


The Hayliegh Project

April 28, 2013


“The Hayliegh Project” stepped into to help

Cocoa looks like a little toy schnauzer and Mickey is the owner/mother.  Little Cocoa is not only a companion to Mickey she is also a service dog assisting Mickey by hearing when someone is at the door and when the phone rings due to Mickey’s deafness.   It came to our attention when I took Mickey to get both of our service dogs groomed at Petco that Cocoa’s ear was inflamed. At Petco, Michelle is my favorite groomer, as she is always gentle and considerate about my disability with the dropping off and picking up my service dog. Michelle brought to our attention to the fact that Cocoa’s right ear was inflamed and showed us what she extracted from Cocoa’s ear.  She speculated that Cocoa’s ear might be infected and that got me thinking.

As another week came to an end, I was concerned about Mickey and her service dog.  Cocoa had started showing signs that something was wrong. Cocoa started shaking her head and the right ear still looked hot pink and swollen, plus Cocoa stopped eating. Mickey had been stressed for the entire week about the cost that could be incurred due to veterinarian bill.

I inquired about PAWS San Diego as Mickey had informed me that she had been receiving food donated from them. PAWS also helps people on “low income” assisting people with their canine companions monetarily for medical treatment. At this point,  Mickey agreed that The Hayliegh Project could step in to represent her case.

The Hayliegh Project helped Mickey contact PAWS.  PAWS stepped in by helping her get the care she needed to treat Cocoa.  I contacted Randy at PAWS. Randy at PAWS San Diego got the ball rolling and Jeff from Paw’s took our information, which I faxed in.  What is important to mention is that Mickey had been signed up with Paw’s for about a year. It is important to mention that anyone asking for the help of a nonprofit organization should be aware that there are rules that have to be done both to protect the organization and the person being helped.   Otherwise there may have been a 90 day waiting period. “At this time, PAWS is not accepting any new clients due to funding limitations.”


Miracles happen every day and a miracle happened today.

Thanks to Paw’s sponsorship and their monetary support, and Dr. Benavides, DVM and the wonderful staff at El Cajon Valley Veterinarian Hospital, who provided all the medical needs while being aware of my clients economic concerns due to Paw’s support.   The Hayliegh Project (Hayliegh and I) assisted in making all the contacts and drove little Cocoa and Mickey to the veterinarian.

Cocoa had stopped eating as the ear infection was affecting her appetite and now she will be treated with an antibiotic ointment and should be up and running around soon.


  • El Cajon Valley Veterinary Hospital and on facebook  El Cajon Valley Veterinary Hospital, San Diego, ca.
  • Paw’s San Diego  and on facebook Paw’s San Diego.
  • To be specific: PAWS San Diego’s mission is to preserve the human-animal bond by providing pet services and support to low-income seniors, chronically ill and disabled people. We offer two programs: Our legacy PetCare and VetCare program offers in-home delivery of pet food and cat litter to our clients and limited vouchers for vet care when resources are available. Our secondary PAWS Pantry program offers supplemental bags of dog and cat food to human service groups and others around San Diego County. Our secondary program is able to reach thousands of pet families and help keep pets out of shelters.


The Hayliegh Project

December 5, 2012

Here is the article I was asked to write about the benefits of both me and my service dogs use of LDN. I still have to live w/ this horrific disease and lately it has attacked my stomach as if my appendix’s has ruptured.

About my service dog she has gained full use of her back leg that was once atrophied and not of any use.  She is surviving cancer w/ no suffering. Hayliegh still keeps working for me as she wouldn’t want to be anywhere else, but w/ me.

I have purchased a Burley tail wagon for her this way we can stay together where ever go.

Every day I ask God to show me what I can do to give back to the world while living w/ this disease and while being home.  I also share what Hayliegh and I do while we are home.


We are on page 7 & 8

I love you Hayliegh Muffins!

I love you Hayliegh Muffins!

Hayliegh’s World

November 30, 2012
love in the first degree!

love in the first degree!

Canine Kisses?    

     Those soulful brown eyes of Hayliegh’s run deep with an all knowing spirit. While the coffee is brewing, I go and give her kisses while we greet the day saying “A happy girl makes a happy day,” “Good morning God,” “You’re the prettiest girl in town” and “Good morning, sunshine girl.”  We go out for a few minutes then back in and have time to sit in the living room. She sits in either on her dogie blanket or the beautiful tapestry wing chair while I do my bible study and spiritual mantras. If I don’t stick with the plan and get caught in the bedroom, she will do this little bark/grumble and come to get me.  She wants me back in the living room.

Hayliegh and I have our own dogie talk. It is really cute. I say in a twangy voice as I am looking at her, “Hayliegh is my partner in crime” and then my dear friend Jori finishes the saying “And you guys are criminals” as we roll the last word out slow with an off voice. I say to Hayliegh “You are the cutest girl in town” rolling out the last word. She will bark and give me a very low woof.  Then we look at each other and I try to predict what she is going to do next, from a low bark to a grumble, as we go back and forth for a while. Hayliegh has our plan all figured out.

Hayliegh and I have our own sign language one is “I see you and you see me.”  I point two fingers at her and then two fingers back at me. I have also taught her good heart by touching my chest and hers with flat hand, she knows “smart girl” as I indicate a flat hand on top of my head or hers. The most special one she has learned is “I love you because you love me.”  The “I love you” is one finger pointed out at her and then two fingers back to me finishes the “you love me.”  I have taught her both by sight voice and touch in case any one of her senses goes out.

We have some games we like to play and one of them is that I say I am going to get her and she will run as fast as she can past me. I have to try and pat her bum; if I can I win, if I can’t she wins.  You know you can actually see her smile. I love to see her run as fast as she can down the hallway, her ears flopping and a smile on her face because she knows it is treat time. Another game is she will start to talk to me by grumbling a small low bark and I try to mimic her sounds, and then I try to do what she is going to at the same time. While we do this she is looking straight at me and I have taught her by touch in case one of her senses goes out.

    They say our dog takes after us and I always thought I learned from her.  She is a filled with all the love in the world, but she isn’t a pansy. What I mean by this is that she will stand up for herself and defend herself.  She doesn’t allow herself to be mistreated by any other dog.  Something I have learned from her about dealing with people.                       

Our bond is priceless as she has graced my life. We can look into each other’s eyes and see how much love and understanding we have for each other. I believe when she licks my skin or kisses my face she is able to detect what is happening to me. I know that when I have taken needed medications, she has been known to lick my skin and knows it has been absorbed into my system. It is clear to me that she then stops worrying about me. I love watching everything about her: the way she trots, how her little tail wags fast and her bum follows when she is happy, how she taps my thigh with her paw, then looks at me as if to say “I want a treat now!”

We have some set routines.   Every night she asks for her dessert, which I call “Wessert.” She will start grumbling in a low whinny cry, looking at me and telling me she wants more treats. At times she rest her head on the couch and then looks up at me with those adorable brown eyes, and it works every time,  She gets more wessert. We have another thing we say, and that is “Do you want something!” in this odd tone and she get excited and woofs “yes.”


I have spent the last year and half that I have had with telling her at night after she has crawled up on my chest. While she is kissing me I would share with her our whole life story from day one to the present. She would soak it up and I would did too.


Haylieghs World

November 4, 2012

Hayliegh next to her Burley tail wagon.

We made the best of this beautiful day. I started w/ lots of pain. I decided to thank God for medication which helped my pain and helped me get going.  We went around Lake Murray on skates and Hayliegh used her wheels.  The lake was sparkling and the dry winds kept the air clean and warm.  Some shots of us at the east end of the lake. My goal is take advantage of every minute w/my little booster she is now thirteen yrs of age and I would like to soak up ever  minute  w/ her.  Goal we were trying to get photos of her in her Burley tail wagon the past photos haven’t shown up well as the wagon is black and so is she.

A great day in San Diego

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